(ill YAY' mee) n.
award-winning percussive rock-folk from Baltimore, MD

Matador.

Matador

I am a matador, my mother told me so
She brought the message to me all the way from San Francisco
She said, "Hold this cloak tight in your hands,
you're destined for achievement.
With it cut a swath through life and your path into the pavement."

I don't want to say I've lost my faith in swords and capes,
but my blood is just as red
and this matador is weary of winding and sweeping
in every direction, all this is just distraction
not real protection from the weakness inside.

This mirrored armor reflects the smiles of those who come to see,
But I'm not so sure as they who the casualty is supposed to be
If I never fight the fight the outcome can stay mystery
If you never were you always could have been
and I owe nothing to history.

Can't this battle wait for later, maybe never,
never's better, never's safer
I don't want to work this hard forever
I can omit, it's not an error,
but the fairer of two choices that are mine, not yours, to make.

Why try when effort begets more of the same?
Every day a new beast to fight to preserve my name.
What if I refuse, would horns still cut me and once cheering hands abuse?

I am a matador, my mother told me so
But how many bulls must I fight before I am allowed to go?
With every win my reputation only spreads and grows,
But one day I will miss a step and fall beneath the horns.

©2002 heather lloyd

Albums:
i love you And I Miss You | Jumpstarting the Bus | the Grave | Strength in Hare | Clockwork Wooden Mouse Dreams | Wingsweep/Wingswept | Bulldozer Not Included | Myxomatosis Failed | on Luck on Fumes on Spit on Love | Myxomatosis Took Its Toll | Upholstered Fortress | the fifth circle | Between Lover & Twilight | A Gift For Saint Cecilia | Samples | Another Life / Another Live | A Message in the Mess Vol. 1 | cicada



A Perfect Day
Allergy
Argonauts
Asher's Prayer
Ask For Me
Asparagus
Baliset
Bearclaw's Mule
bRIDGE
Bulldozer
Chalk Pit
Choke Cherry
Coal Boulder
the Coffeehouse
Common Song
Counting
Crazy As A Good Thing
Credit
Cricket Hunt
Deep in the AM
Didn't Take It Down
Draw You In
Drift
Drown
Elephant Joke
Embers
Even Now
For Everyone a Reckoning
For Your Sake
Friday
Gaze
Georgetown
this Gift
Glom of Nit
Good Heart
Growing Home
Hands
HARM
Hum
Illinois is Overflowing
In the Water
Leave Me Lonely
Letters from the Front
Looking Back
LooseN
Love a Girl Gone
Lower Thank You
the MARC
the March of the Rabbit
Matador
Molotov Swell
My Awesome Fawm Song
Natural 20
Negative Space
No Blue Left
No Place is Home
Ode to a Heat Vent
oh Damn
Oklahoma Revival (1933)
Oracle
Peat Ice
Pine
Pocketing
Pollock
Protest Song
PUSH
rearview
the Revenge of the Mouse King
Revolutions Per Minute
Rob's Lament
Samples
Save Berlin
Seat
Scene
Secret Surgery
Selkie
Sever
Silent Little Bells
Simile Blue
Slight Departure
Sorry If
Speaking Louder Now
Spinning
Spiral
Spiral Notebook
Spring
Stay Close
Steel
Storm
Strain
the Sundress Song
Swan Song
Terms
Toll
Trouble
U-X
VA29
Valeri
the Vow Song
We Must Be Ships
the Weight
Well Plumbed
Will
the Winter Bride
the Worm Song
Wreckingball
You Never Answer
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