There are days when you’re just not yourself. Where you do things that are legitimately so stupid you’ve got no explanation. I had a social thing like that yesterday that I’m not going to go into detail about because – well, things like that you don’t really LEARN from because you don’t go back and say “oh shit, I didn’t realize that” you say “oh shit, what was I THINKING?!”
I’m sure everyone has their moments of stupidity that you simply HOPE your friends will one day let you Live down – from the inside it just makes you feel so miniscule. Like you were watching something cringe-worthy in a bad sit-com and then suddenly it all snaps first-person and you just… well… vomit your foot all over everything.
Yeah… foot vomit.
Not that it was all about me yesterday – last night at my open mic slowly people filtered in, I tried a new arrangement and whether because or despite of the new speaker arrangement, we had everyone cluster up front. The Board and Brew Café sort of formed up like it had another smaller lounge within where the music Lived – something I’ve been trying to “build” through the arrangement of shelves and couches, but since that wasn’t happening I experimented with building it sonically. Again – not sure if it “worked” or if simple coincidence was on my side (thoughts : people sit where they can hear if they want to hear – that was definitely the case last night – also people sit where they can be part of something – we were definitely PART of something last night).
In any case, we had our mix of the cool and the uncool, the newbies and the grey-hairs – and I champion the latter in both contrasts because I’m patently uncool and swiftly becoming a grey-hair. I was pleasantly surprised by the presence of Jess from the Bumper Jacksons who came in and not only used my open mic as an opportunity to try out playing guitar in public for the first time ever but to debut a brand new original song which I really, really, really Loved.
Stark contrast to a song playing on the radio right now which is so laughably cliché that I’d thought it was a commercial till it didn’t stop after 30 seconds. Or after a full minute. Oh my god… it’s not stopping…
It’s a grey day and tonight I’ve got my first meeting as a Focus board member. I’m not entirely sure what that’s going to entail as I probably don’t have anything in particular to add and since I’m feeling kind of dumb I might not want to chat too much in any case, still, let’s see if I can smarten up and become a functioning member of my local music community today.
