It’s been such a rollercoaster of emotions and joys and stresses over the course of July. I’ve been Living, not writing. I’ve relied on others to shoot the photos and I’ve just put cameras down and hoped for the best. I’ve hit record and played my heart out. I have only JUST gone back to see what it is that we’ve caught, captured, triumphed over – and of course – it’s time to move on already.
Not literally of course. Nothing’s resolved with the house. That continues to be stressful, terrifying even. (wait, have I even written about the house? I THINK I have… but as above, I’m not going back to check). Long-story-short – Jack’s told us they plan to sell the house. Do WE want to buy it? “No pressure!”
Well, we’re still trying to match his breezy tone, but pressure is ON.
And yet – some of my favourite gigs in all memory have been a’foot. They’ve been stressful too, but despite the sheer oppressive HEAT of summer in Maryland, the Refuge was marvelous. Despite the terror of drawing on a Tuesday night in DC at a legendary club in Georgetown, the show at Blues Alley was stunning. I’m neck deep in projects that I’m genuinely excited about, Musikfest is coming, I have so much good footage to mix, remix, use…
Hanging over it all is the potential of a massive Life disruption, but even that, I don’t know… I think I’m more excited about it than scared… that excitement is going to dissolve VERY quickly if we reach a good price on the house and we try to move forward and we’re unable to secure even a miniscule mortgage and it feels like I get a big red “F” in adulting….
I’ll say… “this here green F, that’s for ‘fabulous’ right?”
No. Life will response “No. It’s red. Shame you can’t even figure THAT out you absolute FAILURE.”
And I’ll say “no, the F is for Fuck that… and Figure our way Forward”.