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I often try the mental exercise of placing myself in my father’s shoes. Not literally (well, when I was a kid I certainly did, swiping a pair of my dad’s loafers from his bedroom closet and clomping down the hallway) – not really even his place in Life (I have no real interest in visualizing myself as a NASA optical physicist with two kids) – but really just, trying to remember what he acted like at a particular age.

Kristen and Susan overlooking the Potomac on the outskirts of Washington, DC.

It’s 2016. I’m 41 years old. When my dad was 41 years old I was 11, in fifth grade. What do I remember my dad acting like when I was in fifth grade? Proud of me. Stern at times. Sarcastic about Star Trek and Star Wars. It’s the year the Challenger exploded – a particular blow to any family related to the space program. Terrorism was a huge deal in Libya and Pakistan – and Ireland – cartoons even made fun of it (though I didn’t get it at the time, Transformers and GI Joe both had reference to the fictional Middle Eastern country of Carbombya), though there were breakthroughs in nuclear arms talks on the TV I certainly didn’t understand what was really going on and then Chernobyl exploded… it was the year that Halley’s Comet came through and I remember going to Goddard Space Flight Center to look through the telescopes there with my dad and probably Cyrus’ dad and Alan Williams, whose evil twin I would meet some 25 years later…

This morning I got up grudgingly at 10am. In another couple of minutes I’ll be recording drums in my Living room. I made toast for breakfast. My dad would’ve gotten up probably about 2 hours ago and either walked (that was probably a couple of years ago) or more likely driven (it’s a hot, sunny day – so probably in his Austin Healey) to Goddard where he was still an optical physicist, not yet an administrator. Maybe working on GOES? Not yet working on the corrective optics for Hubble I suppose. He and my mom would’ve been married for longer than me and Kristen have known one another – and this week she and I just got engaged.

I try it in reverse sometimes too. Can I imagine having an 11 year-old right now? Probably moderately spoiled (though he didn’t know it) – obsessed with Transformers and space ships, drawing. Very proud that my sons are now both in the Talented And Gifted Programs and Glenarden Elementary school, even if that DOES mean now they’re bussing for half an hour every morning instead of walking the two blocks to Gaywood – undermining one of the reasons we bought this house – and speaking of undermining, I’d be preoccupied with my sinking house, built in the ex-swamps of Seabrook, MD.

I’ll probably run around in circles a couple of times today. I’ll probably curse a fair amount. I’ll go to a bar tonight and play some music with friends. I’ve read the news, caught up on emails and tonight I’ll probably unwind by watching re-runs of Battlestar Galactica (2004-2009) – and maybe a Young Justice cartoon. If I was 11, my dad would’ve read the newspaper and I might’ve read the comics, my dad would’ve gotten the very first emails while still relying heavily on the inter-office vacuum tubes, and I might’ve caught re-runs of Battlestar Galactica (1978-1980) and on Saturday morning watched the Justice League.

Oh yeah, and I proposed to Kristen Jones late Saturday night / early Sunday morning. I’d been looking for the perfect moment, carrying the ring around with me for a couple of weeks. I got tired of waiting. Mischief managed! I believe my Dad proposed to my mom when they were in their late 20s. On a rock. In a rambly kind of way. After getting lost for a while. Similarities and differences.

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