Just a quick note before I crash – good letters from people today. A lot of emails in my inbox, one from someone who’d severed ties with me years ago over a stupid fight, another from someone brand new who has entrusted me with a strange amount of information… another just filled with beautiful photographs and another full of rhymes… I’m in Pittsburgh, which is a city that I could Love – surrounded by some of the people that effect me most emotionally. My mood is heightened by fatigue, by good music, by fatalism – by a willingness to die if I have to. I want to play a huge electric show in the middle of a thunderstorm, screaming down and down and down – and maybe in that inevitable shock of electricution my voice will reach the heights that I heard tonight. And maybe I’m just cinders recovering painfully from well-disguised bad diner food.
Stickies fill my mind with memories of snowy days when I communicated better and all I want is a fireplace and for the fall to fall ferociously.
No place, no one, no time can compare to here and her and now – and I admire my friends so much. For their wit, their ability, tenacity – for what they build and more importantly WHY and what they say and more importantly how. Tomorrow there’s a lot of work to do. Tonight it’s a couch that I’m all too glad to call home.